100th Post

So this is my 100th post! Yay me! I don't know if anyone is reading this, but watevs. This is just an outlet for me when I'm having one of those days when I just want to rant, rant and rant.

Tomorrow I have a test on my Sociology class. It's worth 40% of my mark, yikes! I'm glad I aced our previous test though; that was 40% of my mark too. I didn't expect that I'd get such a high mark, but I guess it's because I just really like this class overall. It's very interesting and the theories are intelligent.

Anywho, lately I've just been working and studying. When I'm not in school, I'm usually working. I'm not complaining though; I'm enjoying both of them-- maybe a little bit more when I'm at work. I love working! *wink*

Not sure if I already wrote about this, but R and I are facebook friends now. Who knew, right? And because I'm really conscious about the whole he-might-think-i-like-him kinda thing, I waited for him to post on my wall. Once he did, damn, I couldn't even contain my happiness. You really turn my world upside down, boy. It's crazy how you change my whole aura. I wake up happy; I sleep happy. I didn't know I'd feel this way again.

I just wish that we work more often. Our shifts lately have been conflicting. When I work, he's about to finish off and during my days off at work, he works. Boo. But I guess that makes it even more exciting once we see each other. I just whisper to myself 'Thank you, Lord' whenever I see him in the staff room because I'm always glad to see his gangster self. I'm happy when I see him. I don't know if he feels the same. I'm not really good at reading people, especially guys.

On the other hand, the Brandon guy that I was tell you guys about-- the one who harasses most of us girls at work-- got fired. R told me about it and I was actually sad about it. Well, okay, not sad, but I guess it was bittersweet. I didn't wish that he get fired because I know that work opportunities are rare. However, maybe he needs some time off to think and reflect as to what really needs to change about himself. A little growing and maturing needs to occur obviously. R didn't disclose as to what really is the reason why he got fired, but I'm sure it wasn't because of the incident between him and me. I never told our HR what happened. God bless you Brandon. I hope you feel better.

Let's talk R. Why do I interpret his statuses as something directed to me? It's so annoying to assume and have a biased interpretation. BUT, I really think his quotes are pertaining to me. One example is about this 4-liner quote talking about not knowing about this girl's past and issues, but wanting her to have the best in life.

Earlier that day, I was talking about my love life to another co-worker. She's new and she's a middle-aged Filipina. She asked me if I had a boyfriend and asked me why not, etc. I assumed that although R was on the couch sitting during our break, he wouldn't hear; if he does hear it, he won't understand because we were talking in Tagalog and very little of English. I told Maria- the new Filipina co-worker- that I was in a relationship for 2 1/2 years and it ended in February. Things got ugly and I don't really want to be involved as of right now-- too much commitment.

That night, he posted that quote about a girl's past on FB so I couldn't think of anything else that could've inspired him to put that. Maybe I'm just assuming? Maybe. We don't know. I'm happy that I have this assumption that we like each other. He always asks me my schedule now in person-- when I'm coming in next and we talk about our schedules matching. In my opinion, although we don't really work together since he's a steward and I'm a sales associate, knowing that we're at work at the same time, gives us both happiness and excitement. Maybe that's just me, again.

Although I'm head-over-heels for R, I actually think it won't be received as positively at work. Lolita might get mad at us. She might lose her trust in me because I won't be there anymore strictly for work, but also to be with R. I think things can get complicated and ugly. I don't want to lose Lolita's confidence in me. I love her too much.

In any case, I know I am happy and I know that this is leading to something good, hopefully. This might just be another Rainbow-after-the-Rain kinda deal. I stumbled and fell, now I'm receiving another blessing from God that will make me feel 100% happy again.

... but why R? R is gangster and we have just a handful of similarities. It's funny sometimes because I can't imagine dating him. He is tough on the outside, but I'm not sure about the inside; though he has some deep quotes on FB. He's so different! He's into sports and stupid comedies. Hmm!