Please pray for my Lola's speedy recovery. I miss her and I want to spend time with her again like we used to back in the day: watching teledramas, gardening, cooking. She reminds me of living a simple life. Her days are filled with contentment, happiness and gratitude.

I feel like God is making my world smaller and smaller by the second. I'm losing everyone I treasure in my life-- 4 of my family died during the end of 2009, I haven't communicated with friends in a really long time and I lost a few more. What's the purpose of living when you're living for nothing with substance, nothing that lasts. Do we always have to live with insecurity, with the threat that a piece of our heart may be lost later, tomorrow.

Why do we love, when losing is our fate. I need to believe that there's something more than this. I want to make every second count, but i don't have that option right now. I can't be with them just yet.

Sunday's liturgy: God won't bring you to a place where He can't protect you.

I hope He can take extra care of my loved ones. I miss them a lot. Life would be so much easier together. A lone soldier is vulnerable without his army, right?

I feel homesick. *listens to christmas songs*