K, so I was using my sister's laptop and I saw these old pictures. Looking at them makes me miss my long hair even mooore! These pictures were taken roughly a year ago. They were taken when we still lived at Malton, Missassauga. I was still high school then, my senior year :) During these days, I couldn't say that life was better or easier. In fact, I like how I am gaining more independence as I mature. I am not blaming my parents for being so strict! I am okay with it now. I really don't like going out anymore except for shopping but gathering with friends or birthday parties, hmm not so much anymore. I don't compare myself anymore to my other friends who are always out and having fun. I guess I am indeed maturing :P It could be because of university or just because I have already accepted the things I can't change :)

By the way, I want to become a nurse now ; in fact, I am doing the pre-requisites this coming fall/winter terms! I have yet to talk to UofT about declining the offer. I have thought of this a million times, believe me! Tyler is a witness and my mom and my sister :P But yes, I will be applying to the 2nd entry program and I will graduate just on time! York, although not as established as UofT, it's my first home and it'll always be my home.

My friend Anne, who's persuing Kinesiology, was very happy and surprised as I am! She was surprised because the last time she saw me, I told her that it's final: I am going to UofT!! I was really excited as hell! She was excited as well since we'll take 2 classes together! Lester, Anne and I will be together next year for Physiology and Anatomy! YAY~ How cool is that :) I am definitely looking forward to next year and to nursing!!

About the program. Of course, I don't expect it to be easy. Before, I always thought that nursing is easy since everyone's taking it. I assumed that it should be easy as 1,2,3 you know what i mean. But as I did my research it's actually emotionally and physically draining. I don't know how it'll be for me as I am not the fittest person; that's actually my worst nightmare: getting too physically exhausted. I know I am really frail. But of course that won't hinder me from pursuing it :P Quite honestly, I don't picture myself being a nurse all my life. I want to be a nurse practitioner. What is it? You have to do your research :)

Ok so what drove me to this change. I just want structure in my education. I was originally thinking of psychology but from the start I knew that jobs won't be secured thus income won't be secured as well. I'm the type of person that I need to be trained to do something. For psych, they said that grads could work in a rehabilitation workplace, in human resources & every university that I checked out for psychology they always say the same thing: a psychology undergrad is inadequate to practice being a psychologist. You need further education . Then why do we even study psychology, to just prove that we have an undergrad degree? I need structure; I need a plan; I need constants in what I will do. I need to know that I will deal with this kind of people, with this kind of atmosphere and I want to be prepared for those. Althought I certainly enjoy psychology, I can't see myself working in a school then in a hospital next. I don't want to hop from one workplace to the next without being able to apply my previous experience to the next. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? In essence, I cannot be introduced to something completely different each time I change jobs! It'd be hard for me! Of course, another bonus is the high pay! Lastly, helping people would be very rewarding :)

I just found this:

“Hospitals aren't run by physicians,’ she says. “Hospitals are only successful
if nurses are there. A physician can cut you up, he can put you back together,
but if you don't have that nurse who's following up, who's helping you to
understand what is the impact of this particular condition on you, then the
hospital falls apart.” (CBS News Website)

Nurses are essential to our community. ! They need me and I want to help!

Anyways, these are the pictures from last year that I was talking about in the beginning. Enjoy!

xoxo,
Meiii