hm.

i dont know why im writing this so early. usually i write late at night to sum up what happened during the day and what not. but for some reason, i just cant move on and do something else after reading your blog and you know who you are. i dont want this blog to be completely about you so i will just address this issue once and for all. i know we talked about this a million times already but i feel really guilty and so im here to explain again my decision. please dont blame yourself because of our failed relationship. you did an amazing, over the top job being a boyfriend for almost a year. but i just cant continue hurting u every single day with the threat of breaking up with you over something shallow. i know i am probably hurting you even worse right now, but isnt it better if i resolve my problem first then return to you when im ready? do you honestly prefer fighting over and over again on things that i just exaggerate about? im tired of being guilty of hurting you. and for once, i wanna stand by my words and end it. i know u feel that i dont appreciate u as a friend after all these times that youve accepted me at my worst but i dont wanna ruin what's left, of whats still there that we can work with perhaps in the future. youve done nothing wrong whiteboy, its me who's just indecisive and immature. im sorry for every tear.

thanks for still loving me even though ive broken your heart a million times already.
im very thankful that even though the world might turn its back on me sometimes, youre still there..
well well thats really something huh :P
i have nothing much to say. u know im still here as a friend :]
dont frown so much on what's happening now, smile because there's still tomorrow :]
i will cherish every moment of our ups and downs. though not so much of the downs :P

ps. i might apply at oceans in shoppers world. its grand opening is on the 16th :]