my sister and i have been doing covers of different artists we like, we record it and post it on facebook. i'm glad we make people laugh although we make fools out of ourselves. it's all good cuz those videos are really intended to make our friends laugh.

but this latest video that we have my sister included this clip of me cussing. though i'm guilty of my swearing every so often, i feel like i should lessen it. i'm worried that my crush won't like me for it. he's so proper and he's the good boy kinda type. ugh, why did my sister include that clip and why did i let her? *strangles my sister*

well at the back of my mind, i was thinking that he should like me for the right reasons and for me. i shouldn't be conscious because i am me and i'm flawed like everyone else. i cuss out of frustration and it doesn't help that i have a short fuse.

sometimes, i feel like i'm too flawed and i should be more refined and proper like my sister and my mom and just about everyone else i know. i don't know why i'm so transparent; why i say, act whatever comes up in my little head. why i'm extremes: i get hyper really easily, i laugh at everything loudly and i overthink about stuff (hence, this blog entry).

i'm so frustrated cuz him and i are so, so opposite, but i still like him because he's the way he is. if you will, he's more conservative than me and i see that he likes girls that are just as conservative as he is. he likes girls that aren't like me. :(

this boy is driving me crazy. he makes my heart skip a beat every time he's around, but i know he's too out of reach, too different. he's an inspiration, a motivation to do better at everything and just live simple.

anyway, enough of that. today's father's day and i gave my dad an electronic shaver hehe. i know he needs it badly since he always asks my mom to get some complementary ones at the hotel or buy the disposable ones at the drugstore. i'm glad he loved it. i wrapped it in a christmas gift wrapper hahaha. that's all we had at home :P

although my dad and i frequently disagree over stuff, i still am thankful each and every day that he's my dad. he always reminds me that he and i look alike and not my mom and i haha cuz we're both dark. before, i hate that i'm tanned, since filipinos don't actually like *maiitim*, but slowly i realized that i should be thankful that i don't look deathly pale during winter.

today, i made some maja blanca since that's my dad's favourite (second to leche flan, which is more expensive to make lol, maybe i'll make some for his birthday on october) i'm thankful that we have occasions to celebrate every month. it just brings out the soft side in us. though we live in a fast-paced environment, we are reminded that we should never take for granted those people that are always there, those who have been there for us during the highs and lows of our life.

i'm thankful that my dad is healthy and still pogi! though he's tired from work everyday, he always manages to be patient with us at home, especially after seeing our messy rooms hahaha!! we should always be thankful for the people that touch our lives once, twice or everyday because that feeling of gratitude and being lucky to have them in our life makes us feel good and inspired to have the same impact to others as they have had on ours. *not sure if that makes sense*

i will post the maja pictures later i'm running late for work *+*