Life's been a little crazy these past few days. Sometimes I want to stop things from happening, but if there's such a thing as fate, I want it to happen faster and less painful; I want to get it over with, if it's really meant to happen. As my friend once said, life is unfair for not letting us know ahead of time that we will get hurt; that we will stumble on our feet once again. Wouldn't life be so much better that way though?

I'm thankful that I was once inlove with someone or maybe I still am; only God knows. I'll be forever grateful for the highest and lowest points of our relationship. You know who your are and if you are reading this, which i doubt since you hate me, I'm not focusing on the sad moments anymore, I'm inlove with the happy ones. I will forever treasure those no matter how you hate me.

I guess, the biggest lesson would be: to learn how to give and take. I didn't how to, so my relationship failed. I was too self-centred and too childish to even think that I should also change as much as I was trying to change my partner to how I'd like him to be. I didn't know that I had to change badly since he always reminded me that he fell inlove with me just as me; that he likes me the way I am. With that thought in mind, I guess I got a little carried away and just acted how I wanted to without considering him.

There are a lot of nights, especially when I'm just listening to my ipod walking home, when I still wish that we'd bump into each other one day.. when we're both mature.. and maybe ready to try it once again. Yes, strangely enough, I still picture you in my future inspite of what had happened. Sometimes I think that I'm just being silly, thinking of you more than how often you think of me, if you even do. But right now, I just indulge myself to still feeling this way, so when I look back, I know I did what I could and that I didn't stop myself from feeling this way once. If I really do end up being single all my life, I know I have those moments to relive.

It makes me sad that what is left of me in your thoughts is hate, anger and grudge. I know I made mistakes and according to you I trained you to be that way, but again, whenever I talked about changing, you told me you don't want me to change. You didn't show me that I needed to change for you. I guess, what you said was only half true. When I faded, you left me be without even trying to pull me back once again; I didn't know you still needed me around. If you love someone, you fight for her or him. When she doesn't text back, you call her on her home phone or you drop by her house.. you don't blame it all on her in the end because, you two are involved in the relationship, not only you or her. (tama, manong?)

I don't have any regrets being once with you and if I had a chance to do it all over again, I would without hesitation because you've been a part of me and will always be.