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I can't say that school is all hectic right now but it's starting to get there. I definitely am adjusting to the crazy streets of downtown Toronto, literally crazy may I emphasis. Whenever I walk towards the Union Station, where I get the train to go home, it's not unusual anymore to see homeless people sleeping on the sidewalk and people in suits together in one place. As well as, bikers running faster than cars, tour buses everywhere, constructions of new buildings and the occasional firetrucks/ambulances with their alarms on stuck in traffic.

See, I didn't grow up in a very commercialized city in the Philippines. I grew up in a rural-ish part of Manila. I didn't grow up where traffic is constant. It was only during holidays when streets are hectic and vendors are occupying half of the road. I'm not used to walking in busy streets at all. And right now, I have to get used to it. It doesn't bug me that I have to adjust to a very different crowd. I think it's funny to be a small girl in a big, real world. I still feel amazed at how busy it is there and how traffic it is 24/7.

So, about my classes. They're not that bad but I still miss my old professors from York University. They're much nicer and funnier, in my opinion. My current professors are funny and they seem approachable too but I guess I'm so full of anxiety because of that craze over University of Toronto being a GPA killer craze. So far I have met my Biology profs and my Learning & Plasticity prof. They're all nice. By the way, I'll have 4 profs in Biology in total. LOL I know!!

Sad to say, I have to take Chemistry Grade 12 at night school. BOO!!! It still disgusts me whenever I think about it. But what the heck, better to get over it now than to postpone it again, right? Then next semester, I have to take Calculus & Vectors. By the way, night school ends at 9:30pm. I don't know how I'll survive. But I know I will, I have to finish it! Definitely, finish it!

Next is my confusion of what to be.. again. I KNOW. But once I finish my chemistry Grade 12, I can apply for nursing too at Ryerson if I still want to. But I don't think I wiill, I don't wanna extend my stay in university for 2 yrs. HELL NO! I guess, I just want to wait and see where God takes me. Because right now, to be honest, I want to be a lot of things. I want to do a lot. I want to explore more of what careers are out there that I might be interested in doing. I guess the only way to know is to get some volunteer hours. To get to have hands-on experience is to live for a fraction of time in the future you. I want to explore, experience what careers are out there because it's the only way that I can shut off all temptations to search up and work towards another university program. We don't want that! Especially my mom. Oh God, please help me. People my age are supposed to know where to head in the future, how come I don't?

To finish this off, I just want to successfully finish this school year. So, help me God and all the other students around the world!